Fear of Writing

And so I make my first foray into the Hubworld, I find my hands shaking, my breathing irregular and my heart pounding in my ears. So I figured typing about 'fear of writing' is a great way to start.

I recently decided I wanted to write. But I haven't written anything for the last 10 years. Okay, so that's not quite true. I have written lots, I just haven't finished anything yet. And why? As much as I want to write I'm afraid that people might read my work. Isn't that a hoot? Okay, its not that they'd read it, of course its their opinions.

Every writer wants their work to be read, but what if its met with such distain that it tears their confidence to shreds? What do you do then? Get a job in McDonalds for $12.55 an hour? I'm sure the hours would be more consistent but hey where's the creativity in that?

I've been reading a number of Hubs. Each of which have been informative, or funny or informatively funny and I wondered, 'am I up to the task?' 'Do I have what it takes?' And so I thought about it. 'Tari,' I said 'Tari you know deep down inside that you have the stuff and all thats stopping you is irrational fear' Saying it to myself only made it bigger. But.. at least I wasn't hiding under the covers anymore.

I'm sure we all know that Proscrastination is the weasley assistant to Fear and that hand in hand they conspire to prevent us from attaining our glory. And so fight we must, head on if necessary to do battle against evil Fear and its mininion, Procrastination.

I write. Even if just in small doses. I write. And my war against my own fears is conquered surely if ever so painfully slowly. The point is, that it IS conquered.

So, anyone that has a fear of writing, singing in public, getting up to make a speech, doing a presentation in front of thousands, finishing that first book, asking that gorgeous girl out.. close your eyes... calm your breathing.. gather your thoughts.. and step out into the light.